Wednesday, August 22, 2007

So. I've been laid off. The new financial boss decided that killing our magazine would give him such a big bonus, he couldn't not do it. We will be officially employed until the end of September. We heard the news yesterday morning, and I'm just now able to really think about possible outcomes without bursting into tears. A lot of the outcomes involve me selling my house at a loss (still figuring out how much of a loss), renting somewhere cheap, and taking on a more adventurous job or jobs. I would be heartbroken if I lost the house. For some reason, and I know it's irrational, I'd feel like a failure. Or, I could find a not-so-attractive job doing technical writing or something that paid well, but which would mean a long commute to Hartford or some similar hellscape. I could put my severance pay towards a Prius, maybe (it's not enough dough to buy one outright). And that way I could keep the house.
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I just got off the phone with the realtor that acted as my buyer's agent. She gave me some numbers, so I have a better idea of what selling my house would mean for me financially. I guess it's up to me now... I have some big decisions to make in the next few weeks that could radically change my life. Stay tuned.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

I've been laid off and it sucks. Don't lose heart, though. You'll pull through this one just fine. Try to make your severance last as long as you can and collect unemployment. Here's a hot tip: in Massachusetts, you get an unemployment bank, so the longer you make the bank last, the longer you have it. I got a part-time job doing something I really loved (that didn't pay very well) and it kept me afloat for about six months, wherein I had free time to do things I wanted to do.

Being laid off feels terrible, but it can be an amazing gift from the Universe. People told this to me when I was laid off and I told them they were liars and then I cried quietly into my pillow. But it turned out they were right.

I'll e-mail you about some not-so-life-sucking job opportunities in the area. Good luck, lady!

-Jennifer Myszkowski

marisa said...

i'm so sorry debbie! please let me know if i can help in any way....

please try to stay positive (atleast most of the time). i strongly believe that positive energy makes a difference. you really never know what the future has in store for you :)

Anonymous said...

I was laid off once when I really wanted to be, and it still felt like I'd been sucker-punched. Give yourself longer than a few weeks to look for a new job in your area, and don't settle for tech writing. You are seriously skilled at real writing, and I say you should look for something that uses that. Start by thinking of the best possible outcome and retreat from that only by inches and only when you have to. Talk to your friends and your friends' friends' uncles. Network without hesitation or shame. You have a fabulous resume, and I agree with Jennifer--this can be a gift from the universe.

--from a corporate escapee in NJ (OK, your mom)

Rahree said...

wow - that's so hard. thinking of you and sending good, adventurous, out-of-the-box-and-keeping-the-house-too thoughts.

cadiz12 said...

i am going through an eerily similar situation (instead of house, it's condo; instead of new england, it's chicago). the reason is eerily similar, too. ("Great job on the last issue! Now let me turn that pat on the back into a shove out the door.")

i hope you get good money for your place, and that we both find good jobs very soon.

Short Hands said...

We should start our own magazine.

Rick said...

I heard the news about the layoffs and was hoping you weren't involved somehow. Being laid off truly feels like a fist to the midsection. And I truly hope everything works out for you and soon. You're a good soul.