Dear Blog,

I'm feeling down again today. I swear, if I suddenly got say $20-$30k, my problems would be solved. I also had serious trouble sleeping last night. Woke up around 3 (after getting to bed at 12:30) and slept very fitfully until my alarm went off. I even had that horrible moment when you peek at the clock and you hope it's gonna say 5:00 and instead it says 7:04.

I'm supposed to be happy right now. Really, I should be: There's a fun variety show thing tomorrow night, and Thursday we start our mini-vacation in New Jersey. I'm going to get a digital camera. Saturday is my birthday. I am turning 30. Have I mentioned that? Thirty. And I feel estranged from the world.