Slow, deep breaths.
I am going to do it.
I am trying not to freak out. Moving to another state will be very difficult (unless I pay a lot of money and have movers take care of everything) but I will be making a lot of lists over the next few days; that should help me wrap my mind around this huge task by dividing it into smaller ones. I decided to do it because, besides Northampton, NYC is where I wanted to live my whole life. I have to respect that desire, even though it will take me out of my comfort zone. I love the city and I am very excited about the idea of living there. I figure my next full night's sleep will be sometime in April, after my brain calms down a little. I will be leaving a lot of people I love, but I'll be back for visits. And my friends will have a nice futon couch to sleep on when they come and visit.